Hannah insecure

by hannah
(london)

I have always had small boobs and of course was teased ruthlessly in school which did not make it better, I was too afraid to take my padded bras off until I was 18 in front of a boyfriend and still tried to hide them.

I got a new attitude after we broke up I lost a lot of weight and started doing some modeling had a few flings who never said anything bad in that area and finally was feeling fairly confident, however that has soon gone downhill...

I am not going to lie I dread wearing bikinis because I cant help but notice all these busty girls who can fill theirs out, my real problem is because my boobs are so small I feel my body has to match so I have dipped in and out of anorexia and now am a healthy size 10 but will cry myself to sleep about my lack of proportion. My partner of two years says he loves my 'tooters' (backhanded compliment) but I am hugely insecure as I have seen pictures of his exes who are super busty and gorgeous and I honestly believe he is wishing they would grow or may eventually cheat with a real women!!! I am about to move to NZ with him so bikinis are worn 8 months of a year. how can I get over this...has anybody else been through similar motions
would love to hear from you,
Thanks