I have small Breasts

by Misty
(CA)

I am 17 years old, 34A about 5'4 and 130lbs and pretty. I am self conscientious about my breast size and I know I have no good reason to be.

Growing up with two older brothers and an open mom about her sexuality didn't help. I always heard everyone talking about a woman's big breasts and watching it on movies and looking at pictures. I always thought I can't wait to be 16 and have breasts and have guys look and talk about me that way. Now I am 17 and I do not recall once a guy ever looking at my chest in less they were insulting me.

Now I am pretty, I get told how pretty I am all the time and I believe them... about my face. But in society today, it's just not enough. I feel absolutely uncomfortable naked or even with a low cut shirt. But maybe that's a good thing. I think if I had breasts I would probably be a slut. no joke. I'd get to much attention. And I understand that there is a lot of bad things that come with them. Maybe I am supposed to have small breasts, I don't know, and I am glad that I grew up with them because they made me who I am today. But I do not feel like a women. I want to feel like a women. I want a man to look at me and call me a women.

I don't like to lie about anything, although I do. But what I do not like to lie most about is myself. I do not want to stuff my bra and wear a bra that makes me look like I have more than I do. I do not want a man to expect something that I don't have. I am a virgin, proud of it most of the time. and I am scared that I will disappoint any man that I decide to sleep with in the future. I don't want them to settle with my breasts, I want him to like them. Even if a guy says that he loves my breasts because their mine I'll still know that he doesn't love them individually and that it wouldn't hurt if I was born with bigger ones. I know that there are men out there who like small ones but I don't see them! Maybe it's because I am still in highschool and all the guys in highschool don't know what's good.

I just wanted to let all women out there with my problem to know that there is a good way to look at it and a bad way. I know over time, with the right guys I will learn to love my breasts because I am willing to learn. I know I am sexy, I just don't understand why yet.