I miss my small boobs

by Maria
(NY)

Hey, I had a 32A (actually a 32nothing...) and got a 32B from plastic surgery when I was 23 years old.

I was totally flat, in other words, I had the same chest at the age of 9 and 20. I was not able to find any bra that suited me well. I used to use padding and gel bras, but anyway, they created a gap on the top. I hated that. I actually remember that when I was at high-school and lifted my arm in class to ask a question in class, my bra used to move up too, so that its padding was then above my nipple... (and that I had to place it again, which was embarrasing).

Then I got a boob-job. I insisted that I did not want big boobs, I just wanted boobs! (since I had nothing before!). I chose the smallest implant size available and told my surgeon "I want that men keep on looking me at my eyes...". After the surgery, I was not happy because my boobs looked so big to me! Actually, they took almost one year to get the final (smaller) size.

Now I have a 32B and look gorgeous. Anyway, if I could get my surgery redone (which I will probably have to do sometime) I would choose even a smaller implant, if possible. I know I will then look worse (following the beauty standards) but I would like much more myself, I think, because I prefer smaller boobs.

Why?

- Because I consider that small boobs are more elegant than big ones. They usually have more class. I consider that big boobs are often vulgar. I would actually decrease a little my current size if I could. Now that I could use push-ups and so on, I don't want to, because I don't want them to look bigger.

- Because I was born with small boobs and I did not want to get a radical change when I got my surgery done. I did not want to change myself, I just wanted a little retouch to look better, but still me. And there is nothing wrong with having small boobs. Regarding boob-jobs, I think that in case of mistake, it is better to be wrong in default than in excess.

- Because no man has loved me much more since I got my breast enlarged. I've got much attention, but never the one I was looking for. Men have always been attracted to me because I have big blue eyes, I am very beautiful, I am intelligent and charming. I did not need to get boobs to attract men. Now that I have them, I still don't want that my breast to play any role in this game either! Besides, I'd rather prefer not to attract men because of something that it is fake! It would actually offend me! My intellect, my smile, the look of my eyes, my enthusiasm... that's real and much worth than my breast (specially if it is not even mine!)

- Because my implants have made me feel unconfortable in bed when I had a new boyfriend, much more than with my flat breast. Why? Because it matters a lot to me that the man doesn't think that I am superficial... and because I am afraid they look fake and it could makes me look like an artificial girl. I have a PhD in engineering, and the men I usually date, are attracted to me because I am brilliant, well-balanced and a woman who inspires them respect... and I don't want that my breast implants makes dissapoint them somehow. Anyway, if there is someone my implant have to please, that's me first.

So, in summary, I am happier with my implants than with my totally flat chest (I am now able to buy bras, bikinis... and I like myself much more now), but I'd get them reduced if I could and just get a small "even fake" breast.

In conclusion, this is my ranking:

1st: The breast size you were born with, including the small ones (except flat ones): I think that it is more important that they look beautiful and natural, than the size.
2nd: "silicon breast": it is far than perfect, but at least, you have breast.
3rd: "flat chest"

So, I would only advise surgery to correct some defects, but never the size.

And finally, girls, just give it the right amount of importance. They're just boobs... I usually tell that big boobs are not so impresive, any woman can pay for a pair of boobs (as I did, haha), but brain material has just no price.

I hope this information helps other girls.

Best!

Maria