Let Down

by Patri
(Canada)

Ever since I was younger (may sound creepy) I have always waited for the time when I grew up tall, pretty, with a nice round chest. I am now (can't say) 5'3", square shaped face, and have 32AA. I have three older sisters who have much larger chests and are beautiful. I feel like I got the shortest stick, and as if fate or some mystical power is laughing at me, rubbing it in my face.
I search for natural enhancers but I cannot help thinking: This is not fair.
I have no confidence in myself, therefore do not think of myself as pretty. Sure I have fun with my friends, I am not depressed, but it is always in the back of my mind.
I do not want to have larger breast for a man, but for myself and my self-esteem. It does not matter what others say, I think I will always have that envy for women who fill out their dresses perfectly, while I get I.D.'d.
I feel so let down, but have to resort to waiting until I am 18 when I would stop growing and hopefully just be a late bloomer instead of a no bloomer at all.