Long story alert....

by Emily L
(UK, South East)

I currently am a 36 aaa (UK size). I say triple A because i'm flat chested. That's right I wouldn't even fit one of your small 'sexy bras'.

After being recently diagnosed with a rare form of PCOS (polycistic ovary syndrome) I finally have an answer after 7 years of waiting- it's my bodies fault that I have small breasts. But why is it a fault? Is it such a negative thing?

After mental and phsyical bullying throughout the whole of secondary school (high school) due to my breasts I have emerged from my shell i took such comfort hiding in. At least I thought I did. Last month I took the visit I had been waiting 7 years for to my doctor. In the UK you can have free breast augmentation, enlargement etc free of charge on the NHS, and I was ready to take full advantage of this service. Despite frequent discouragment from my long-term boyfriend, who loves my despite of my lack of breasticles (excuse the slang). So I stepped into the consultation room, and immediately began the floods of tears that emerge everytime I try to talk to someone about my 'problem'. This made me question how far I had really emerged from my shell. Yes I won't be bullied for my body type anymore, but had I fully accepted it myself?

The truthful answer was no.

The fact is all these beautiful women in the media, friends, family or whoever all have bigger breasts than myself. To this I now have one thing to say. So what?

Despite my flat chest, I still have breasts. I still have nipples. I have one breast that is VASTLY smaller than the other one. There's certainly no tissue under the left side, just nipple. They still serve the same purpose. They will get bigger during pregnancy, and they may get smaller after. I still have breasts. They are deformed, but I cannot change this fact without making them larger surgically. Would this make them more beautiful? Would this make me more beautiful? My boyfriend, friends and family think (or say not). But is doesn't matter what they think. It's what I think. I think they and I are beautiful. I'm not religious but i believe they are that size because that is how I was created. I would not have been created this way for no reason.

I want to help people. I believe we can make our voice heard. Internationally. There are so many bra companies for those with bigger breasts. What about us? Come on girls let's make this happen. F*** anyone who stands in our way! We don't have to all 'get along' or be friends. But we all have to stand together.

Love yourself, love your breasts.

Peace,
Emily
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